It's been almost a year since my last jounral entry. I would have to say it's quite outdated in terms of what I've become: my ideas, relationships, philosophies, interests (etc).

I've met some amazingly influential people and rebuilt friendships that I was stupid to have doubted. I still question life and have not been satisfied with an answer; I am left to dwell on the absurdity of it all. I think I will until I accept there will be no meaning. But I doubt that because I'm human.

A year ago I perceived myself as an unique individual above the rest. But now I realise that it is this intended isolation that makes me and many others unhappy. Everyone is connected - it's beyond our perceptions to understand it (another reason I feel life is so absurd).

I feel I'm not as outward as I used to be - well in particular environments. Maybe it's a result of the extent I disconnected myself from others - or I may still be exercising this.

I have accepted my questions and my change and my absurd existence. Now I must completely surrender and accept myself and others.

I'm front on to everything!
The latte takes precedence over nothing... it does over everything at when it's seven in the morning.